| "so long .. farewell" |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|06:46 pm] |
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well .. its been like weeks since i've updated this shit and i think its bc myspace had just taken over and theres no room in my life for two websites so i'm sorry to say goodbye to livejournal .. maybe one day i'll update but don't count on it! i just don't have time for it anymore and once school atarts i won't have time for anything ...
i just would like to say that i kinda wish i was still going back to MRHS with all my friends .. bc there all seniors and i wish i could have all the senior fun with them ... good luck to class of 2004! .. and to 2005! .. have fun during ur last year at manchester .. and make it memorable .. and DON'T 4GET TO THINK OF ME !!! ..
this summer has been really fun !! .. all those drunken nites and everything else was loads of fun!! .. theres so many memz and inside jokes that i can't even list them .. i love u all and good luck to everyone when school starts!! .. bye !!
-fOsCh ! |
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| "let's play exchange student" -antonio |
[Jul. 29th, 2004|11:10 am] |
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well .. to say the least it's been a crrrazzy ass week ! .. first on sunday nite we had a little yankee party (me hooly jeff and dan) then kenny christiann nicole antonio jarrett diesel kelly bryan jon and steve came by .. whoa that was a funnn party !! ..i've never seen holly sooo shit-faced b4 ... it was grreat !! and probably the funniest thing of the nite was kenny putting that stupid toy box doll head on his head .. it was grreat!!
but thats not were the exchange student thing all happened .. last nite was even better!! everyone was soo messed up ! ...then we're sitting in the back yard and next door was also having a little get together so we decided to play exchange student .. kenny christiann and antonio decided to crash their party while half the kids from next door were at my party ! ...which was sooooo much better then theres ... so then everyone ended up at mine which was pretty damn fun!! .. i walked some kid inside to go pee and all i hear is meredith hooking up with this random guy .. she was GOOONE!!! then we're all chilln outside and it starts to freakin' POUR!! so i was soaked trying to get everything and everybody inside..it was nuts .. but it made the nite more exciting ! ..so we were all chilln in the basement and then kenny decides to put that damn toy box head on again! and then all the ppl from the other party left so it was just me holly kenny antonio jeff bryan and jon .. and out of no where kenny, who was completed drunk by the way, decided he wanted to take a shower so he did! taht was the most random act of drunkenness that i've ever seen! we started fucking with him while he was in the shower .. it was hilarious !! ...so then everyone left and it was me holly jeff and bryan .. we watched thirteen .. and spilled a lil beer and just got shit-faced some more ... then bryan left and us 3 went to sleep !!..all in all it was a grreat nite and we might have to do it again .. and the best part was when kenny tole me it was the best party he's been too .. i got excited!! hehe it was awesome!! ..so now its 2:30 and we just woke up ..now its time to clean up ..
-fOsCh! |
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| i cant even type rite now... |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|12:29 am] |
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hey ya'll .. haha!! me and hooly are sooo wasted rite now and its like 3:3o am .. im house and dog sitting for my aunt .. we're goin to sleep now ... nite all!! mad fun times hooly i love yoU! ...
-fOsch! |
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| feeling left out is soo awesome!! |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|11:30 pm] |
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| | feeling left out! | ] |
well tonite i went and saw feeling left out at kennys church. and it was awesome!!! there first show with Bill back (YAY!! hes so hot! lol)
Seeing them again really lifted me up bc i love there music and they are too awesome guys!..more people should listen to them!..everyone of there songs remind me of something or someone and i think thats kool..the last times i saw them they got me thinkin and depressed..but tonite i just thought about the past and smiled, i thought that what happened happened and it was fun while it lasted..like being wit anthony was the best and jeff too...and i kno everythings gonna be okay..i'll still have my depressing days but for now im all good and im content!!..well anyway feeling left out is awesome and i love them! hehe...as they would sayy..
"sleep forces itself on me..."
(so im off to sleep goodnite)
-fOsCh!
ps..next saturday come out and see me kenny and dan perform at the beantown gourmet coffeehouse in allendale, it should be really good!
and the 30th at kennys church again..copperpot polonius janus star..(oh wait there new name is east bound) and thats about it i think..bye |
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| my report card dont matter no more!! |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|12:04 am] |
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| | feeling left out! | ] |
lets see now..
concert choir- 94...i guess she took off those 6 points for not being able to shut the hell up and not being able to stay still lol
art 1- 74...that whole hand guesture thing during the second marking period really did it for me..(i swear i didnt mean for her to see that! lol..and i got 2 days of DASH for that lol)
envirnmental science- 74..i dont even kno y i even took that class lol..i think bc ant and ker were in it lol..well that class was the WORST!!
phys ed.-95...mrs. olsen was the shit! i wish she was my mom bc shes the koolest!
health- 95..thats was first marking period so i already knew that one lol
algebra 2- 50..i failed and lost cradit due to absences..i guess it was all those times i cut and went to lunch lol..what a year with mrs. pacio..she fuckin hated me lol but its ok bc i wasnt fond of her either lol
drama- 94..that was the third year i took that class and this year sucked!..but me fatts millie and tania had fun always getting in trouble lol
personal money management-80..i think that was my fave class..even if i got made fun of and almost punched kevin blair in his ugly face lol..but boy did me jacquie and craig have fun!!
well i dunt even kno y im writing this bc it dunt matter for shit anyway bc i fuckin GRADUATED!!! haha..im glad im out of there!!..thats all for now lol. bye
-fOsCh! |
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| understanding... |
[Jul. 8th, 2004|12:29 am] |
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| | depressed | ] |
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| | avril.."nobody's home" | ] |
i used to get things and how they worked..but i dont anymore. i have no more dreams inside of myself...it's like there's no end to my confusion. it's so strange the way this feels...i have no idea where it comes from. my life seems alrite but my head it all over the place...i wish i could understand!
-fOsCh!
ps..my ear hurts sooo freakin' bad today that i just want to rip out my earing lol
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"Nobody's Home"
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah |
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| boys suck throw rocks at them....HARD ONES!!! |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|03:00 pm] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
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| | "i don't wanna be" gavin degraw | ] |
i want everyone do to me a favor...never let me fall in love AGAIN!!!..(or at least not for a long time!)
this past week has been TOTALLY crazy! and so much had been going on..i just have to breathe and calm down! well i got my ear pierced yesterday and it really hurt lol but it looks freakin' awesome! hehe!
i have no clue what too write bc my head is about to explode!!
i'm going to make pastina! leave me a comment and make me feel better! bye
-fOsCh! |
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| "high school's over..." |
[Jun. 24th, 2004|01:22 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
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| | coheed | ] |
well that's it..my four years of high school are over for good!! and i don't know what i'm feeling rite now. Today's one of those days..you just don't know what to do with yourself, there's so much shit stuffed into your mind that you just want to explode..(and like me..cry). i woke up this morning at the sound of my phone bc T had to drop off her dads car at BMW and needed a ride back. then we made breakfast and watched along came polly (good movie..funny!) and now i'm sitting home pondering if i should get up and get my stuff done. i'm really tired bc my sleeping order is messed up bc of project graduation (which was really fun!)
at first we get to the school and the bus never showed so we all had to bring our cars..but of course my dumb ass locked them in the car AGAIN!! so i started freakin' out...thank God my mom came and gave me the key! so me and moises drove to willy p. the first thing i did when i got there was EAT!! lol then we just chilled. they had everything there!! it was soo fun!!..at first i kinda felt left out bc im not really best friends with anyone there so i felt weird...and i got into to one of my depressed-dont feel like doing anything mood. i wanted to go home..i needed to talk to someone but my phone had no service...but then steph me kear kelly cal and joann made a music video and it was hilarious...and then we danced made shirts..and did a whole bunch of other kool shit!! so all in all it was a fun nite!!
the graduation itself was ok..it ended up being inside which kinda sucked since a lot special ppl in my life werent there...but anyway..the fire alarm went off a couple times and we kept getting out beach balls and shit taken away..i was blowing bubbles at the end tho!! hehe :)...you might all be surprised to tell you that i didnt cry during the ceremony..which i really thought i might..i didnt cry until after when holly had told me something (i won't say what it it tho lol) then i got home and looked at my sisters away message..and i started to cry..not having her there was the worst, bc she has been there for me every step of the way and i've look up to her since the day i was born and she wasnt at my HS graduation..so that sucked! lol
well..i just wanna say thanks to everyone you made my years at manchester the best time ever!! and ill never forget it!!..
(i was gonna name everyone but thats way too many ppl!!! hehe)
until later..when maybe i'm feeling better..
-fOsCh! |
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| rain rain go away....:( |
[Jun. 22nd, 2004|01:07 pm] |
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well my day has come! im graduating high school but im not excited at all...its raining!! AHH!!! i'm already sad bc my big sissy isnt here..and now my BFF can't come...everyone pray that the sun will come out...its 1:09 so theres still a chance!! so i'm askin anyone who reads this to pray for me!!!! well i gotta go run some errands and iron my gown..hehe!! |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|06:19 pm] |
Name one thing you love about me
Now one thing you hate
And now copy and Paste this in your LJ
-fOsCh! |
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| i never thought i'd say this... |
[Jun. 8th, 2004|03:54 pm] |
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| | z100! | ] |
it's been awhile since i updated bc i've been really busy with school and prom and stuff.
prom was really good..i didn't have fun the whole time tho (i seriously think i'm bipolar or something..jk) there's just always somthing on my mind lol...
prom weekend was the shit..i never really hang out with those girls anymore but i'm really glad i did bc we had an awesome time!!!
well anyway..today was a weird day. i walked out of school and something came over me and i realized how much i'm gonna miss being in high school...its weird bc all i keep saying is how much i want to get the hell out! lol..but i realized that high school is like the funnest time of your life and i'm gonna miss being there! i know that i'm sticking around after its over but i'm really gonna miss everyone...and like all my friends are juniors so its gonna be weird not having them around during the day(having them wipe my MANY tears away lol)...what the hell am i gonna do?...and i'm also scared that i wont keep in touch with a lot of ppl who i've been friends with!...all in all i'm probably gonna cry at graduation although i said i wouldnt lol..so yea that's what i was feeling today hehe!
these next 2 weeks are gonna be sooo busy and stressful but shit happens..all the time!!!...so i better get started on my work lol and i got fashion show practice tonite too!! buhbye
-fOsCh!
p.s. i do not hate rachel s. i just get really jealous!..and i have a reason to be lol |
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| term papers suck!! |
[May. 18th, 2004|10:13 am] |
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| | disappointed | ] |
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| | none! i'm at school bitch! | ] |
ok i'm sitting in english class rite now..i'm supposed to be doing my term paper..but you know me! i hate this shit!!! i'm sure everyone else does too, but it seems like i'm the only person not doing anything..{thank God mr. parent changed the due date for the notecards..bc i don't even know what my papers gonna be about yet ahh!!}
so our senior class is going to a taping of TRL and of course i can't go bc of the fucking spring concert...i'm so pist!!..but whatever..shit happens!! ALL THE TIME!!
i got a date for the prom finally!! and it's kristina len!..i never thought that i'd be taking a girl to my senior prom, it kinda sux {i decided not to bring jeff bc it would kinda hurt, and devin said no, and i didnt even ask anthony} but who cares bc me and T are gonna have soooo much fun!! yay!!..and my mom is actually letting me go down the shore for the weekend after prom...i dunno how i pulled that one..and i didn't even lie or anything!! lol...i'm soo excited!!!!!
i got back from virginia beach on sunday..and boy did i have fun!!! i went for my sister's {amy} graduation at virginia wesleyan college...{thank God the ceremony was only an hour long..hehe}
well..me, amy, jessica, tara, and val bugged out the whole weekend...we went clubbin' and chilled at the beach it was a freakin' awesome time...and i defintely needed that!!...amy's home now..but she has to go back next week for the summer bc she failed a class...:( i'll miss her ALOT!!
well...me and jeff are best buds again which is really kool...but it's still kinda hard for me to deal with the whole thing...but i'm doing better then i was!...i do hear things alot but i hope they are not tru!...{no need to mention what i hear}...i don't kno what the fuck to do anymore with everything that's going on..i'm so damn confused again!!...i hate everything rite now... so sorry to anyone if i seem like a bitch lately..it's just with school..money issues {i have none!!!}..family..jeff..and just every other little thing on my fucked up confused mind!!
ahh!! i think one day i might have a neervous break down...
but all in all...i'm doing pretty good. so u don't have to worry about me!! :)
well i better get some information for my paper... buhbye!!
-fOsCh! |
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| about to go outta my mind.... |
[May. 12th, 2004|08:32 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
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| | none..im watchin tv bitch!!! | ] |
well lets see...this week didnt get any better..but today was a pretty good day bc i dont have my fam here to bother me...but up until now i've been ok..now i feel like shit again!!..
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont have a prom date..i honestly and completely don't want to go at all anymore!!!!!! i'm being serious!! but my mom would murder me since she paid for my dress...and i have no money what so ever for other shit i need!!...this sux!! prom is gonna suck!!! {big balls!}
well this weekend i'll be in virgina with my sister..and it better be a good time!!!...i need it!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll miss you all! dont have too much fun without me!! {the fun me..not the depressed old grump i've been the past couple weeks lol}
buhbye!
-fOsCh! |
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| juSt bReathe.... |
[May. 9th, 2004|07:52 pm] |
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| |  embarrassed | ] |
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| | one tree hill theme song | ] |
well..this week has been horrible..{to say the least}
and i did some pretty stupid ass shit..{so sorry to everyone}
last nite we had the birthday bash...and boooy did i bash it!!
i can be a real screw up sometimes..but i'm glad everything turned out ok..thru out the nite people were bored..pist..depressed..fucked up..and just plan old stupid! there were tears..angriness..but in the end i actually had a fun time..and i really really hope everyone else did too!! and i just wanna say thanks to everyone who was there for me..ker, holly, steve, dan, matt, christina, fatts, aaron, carl, and i think that was everyone..and to jeff..i'm sorry and i'm glad we worked things out..{wow! seeing him mad at me like that was the worst feeling in the world}...well i guess thats it..
-fOsCh!
i dOn't wanna be anything OtheR than wHat i've been trying tO be lateLy..all i have tO dO iS think of me and i have a peaCe of mind..i'm tiRed of lOoking 'rOund rOomS wOndeRing what i gOtta dO oR whO i'm suppOsed tO be..i dOn't want tO be anything OtheR than me!!... |
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| spring break recap !! |
[May. 2nd, 2004|12:16 am] |
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| | content | ] |
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| | from autumn to ashes "autumn's monologue" | ] |
Well..spring break is obviously over..it's 12:18 am on sunday.
It was fun! Here's a recap of my week.
Sunday - (i cant really remember what i did during the day) at nite me ker and holly went to hollys for bday cake! ice cream cake rox!..(i think thats what my wedding cake will be!!) then we went to my house and watched gothika! (considering we fell asleep watching it the nite before) it was kinda freaky..but good!
Monday - slept in..holly came over and we made a bday brownie cake..and ate like half the batter (gets ya sick lol) went to work 5-9, me and pam bugged out like usual! hehe!..at nite ker and holly came over. we ate our cake and watched american wedding. (yea i kno it does seem like all we do is watch movies lol)
Tuesday - kenny woke my lazy ass up. we went out for lunch at calico kitchen and chilled. i ended up randomly painting his basement, then got in the mood to clean, so i went home and did a HUGE cleaning job in my room for pretty much the rest of the nite..borring! i kno!!
Wednesday - me and holly went to mcdonalds to get food. we got might kids meals so i could get another doggy for my collection! i have 6 now! then i dropped her off at softball. then i went shopping with my mom and stacy. i got a few things (i actually got along with my mom this time!! whoa). i got home and me ker and holly met up with tom glenn moises abilio and erika at brother brunos and ate. then me holly got really really hyper bc we went and got slurpies and laffy taffy again, so we picked up corey and went to kerrys to watch thirteen, it was a pretty f*cked up movie but it was kool!
Thursday - woke up mad late!! like 1pm..so i just chilled around until i hadda pick up stacy from school. at nite i went to the yankee vs. oakland game..it was soooo kool!! i'm like all into the yankees now!! it was awesome!! (except the fact that me and my mom got beer spilled ALL over us!! lol)
Friday - (jeffrey bens birthday!!!!)slept in, chilled with kenny for awhile . at 4 i went to the manchester vs. EC baseball game for an hour (we won!) until i hadda go to work at 5 ugh! after work i went and babysat the cousins (kayla and RJ) and then i slept there..it was fun! and my aunt gave me 20 bucks, so it was all good! i love those guys!!!!! there adorable!!
Saturday - woke up by my kayla jumping on me..ate breakfast with my aunt and cousins. then worked at the car wash at kens church wit ken johnny and gabe (they are hilarious!!!) it was alot of fun! but it did get tiring after awhile..and i got soaked and sun burnt! hehe! then me and holly went to 7 11 and got slurpies and taffy again!! not good! hehe..then went to work with pam ( i love that girl!) after work ker came and got me..we met up with some ppl at gelottis..then chilled at tommys house..then went to ridgewood starbucks with the girls (havent chilled with them in awhile) it was a fun nite!!
well that was my week!! i hope everyone else enjoyed theres too!!
now its sunday..i gotta get some sleep and do my homework tomorrow! hehe..always wait for the last minute!! (and for the record: all week i thought i jeffrey ben! :) hehe!)
-fOsCh!
p.S. inSide jOkeS of the week!! (dedicated to hooly!)
*slurpies and laffy taffy!!
*DAHHHHH!!!
*might kids meals!!
*"look i'm a walrus!!"
*"let me touch your face like that"
*knock on wood!! (or just pull over and touch a telephone poll!) |
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| wOrdS of adviCe... |
[May. 1st, 2004|04:44 pm] |
hey guys..even though we were on spring break i did learn some things...(who says learning isn't fun?)
1. don't go on road trips..YOU'LL GET YOUR HEADS CHOPPED OFF!!!
2. laffy taffy get you VERY hyper!! (just ask hooly!)
DAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. eating mcdonalds (even mighty kids meals) will make you gain 24 pounds...no not 25 and not 20...24 pounds!!!
well that's all the learning for this week...stay tuned!!
-fOsCh!
ps. thanks to kerry for the info!! |
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| bOred Out Of my mind!!! |
[Apr. 28th, 2004|04:15 pm] |
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| | bored | ] |
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| | anything eRic cLaptOn!! | ] |
well thiS week Off of sChoOl sO faR haSn't been tOo exCiting, unfOrtuneteLy, but me hOoLy & keR chilled alOt sO itS been fun, juSt uS giRls. and i hung Out with kenny yeSteRday, and i ended uP juSt randOmLy painting hiS baSement..it waS fun!! hehe
i gOt in the mOod tO clean..and sO i tOtally did a MAJOR cleaning jOb Of my rOom..it needed it!!! i gOt rid Of alOt of shit!! (2 bagS gaRbage bagS full lol) and i tOok dOwn thOse dReamStReet pOsteRs on my dOor (sOrry keR..it juSt HAD tO be dOne lOl!!)
i really dO miSs jeffRey ben!! i caN't wait til he cOmeS hOme! i'm kind Of sCaRed thO..i juSt want eveRything baCk tHe way it waS! :(
but letS nOt gO theRe...
well tOday iS wedneSday and i'm sOoOo fReaKin' bOred!!!
save me!!!
thatS all fOr nOw!! buhbye!!
-fOsCh! |
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| i can't think of a subjeCt... |
[Apr. 25th, 2004|12:14 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
well...it's 12:14pm here and it's 5:15pm in europe!!
i'm so mad bc he IMed me antexted me today but i was in church so i didnt get to talk to him!! ughh!! just my luck!! lol
damn i miss jeff..i feel like that when he comes back he won't be coming back at all...to me that is!..i dunno..i just always look on the bad side of things i guess..
(erika if you read this..i hope you really do yell at him!!!)
well at least we have a week off of school because i have senioritis and spring fever..not a good compination AT ALL!!!
i'm so bored rite now i think i'm just gonna eat junk food and watch movies all day.. and the rest of the week i got a few things planned which will help me keep my mind off of things...
if everyone hasnt already noticed..i've been carrying around that YODA figurine where ever i go!! it's like i can't let go of it!!
HAHA!!!!
me ker and holly saw "13 going on 30" last nite..and it was a really good movie..go see it!!...i cried of course..i honestly can't think of one movie that i didn't cry watching haha!! i'm such an emotional basketcase lol!! then we rented gothika but all 3 of us fell asleep haha!!! thanx girls for the fun nite!!
oh yea one last thing... me and louie wrote a song together last nite...he decided to steal my lyrics so we just wrote a song together...tell me what you think...
it'S 12am, the secOndS aRe paSsiNg.
.i caN't beLieve hOw haRd my head iS pounding!
...and tears aRe at tHe edGe Of tHe eyes
look in the mirror,
asking who exactly i see
...this person looks bewildered then he cries
where is this place that I am now?...
I cant seem to think straight...
the only question i face is..how?
smoke from my cigarette fades away
as I think of just the things I want to...
me and you.. you and me
.chorus: this is not how I pictured myself now,
so many places i'd like to be somewhere somehow
I look back on the past at what I've done,
and I realize I've could've had somebody someone...
I’ve looked back at the faces that I’ve known,
So many have grown,
….I got left behind…
If I could take it all back I would,
take it all back and fall behind
…..In my mind
I feel like I’ve been torn apart,
And pieces have been ripped from my heart,
..From my heart….
And if I had just one more chance,
I sware to god I’d do it all again,
….Cmon lend me your hand….
..chorus: this is not how I pictured myself now,
so many places i'd like to be somewhere somehow
I look back on the past at what I've done,
and I realize I've could've had somebody someone...
ok well that's it...buhbye!!
-fOsCh! |
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| juSt waiting... |
[Apr. 22nd, 2004|10:48 pm] |
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| | scared | ] |
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| | "take time to find"..jeff just take time to find... | ] |
well..this has been a really weird couple of days and now i don't want to kno whats gonna happen next! everything was goin great and now i'm all messed up again, and its not just the whole jeff thing..it's everything again...
school sux!! but today marks the 2 more months til graduation..thank God!!! but i have all this shit that has to get done which i have no strength whatsoever to do!!
my moms still on my back!! she never believes a word that comes from my mouth and i tell her the truth!!! whatever!! ughh!! i feel like the only time im satisfied with family is when amys home..and at this moment i dont think shes coming back from virginia...i really think she should stay there..it will make her happier..but me..its gonna take awhile to deal with it...well i guess we'll just have to plan on some ROAD TRIPS!!!! hehe..hooly!!
and about jeff...no need to explain about it!! he knows how i feel..but i think he might think im too obsessed with him..im trying to be as strong as i can (STRONG LIKE BULL!! hehe)...imma miss him alot when hes in europe..but im kinda scared bout whats gonna happen when he gets back...like i said in my subject...im just waiting...for answers...to all these questions in my head!!!
jeff: i'll wait for you...just like you waited for me!!
i love you..remember that!!
i was listening to my early november cd (oh yea..ben u still have my other one and i want it back!! lol) and i found these lyrics that kinda sum up how i feel..there a lil weird but it kinda made sense..and it was raining when i was listening to it too so thats ironic...ill include the lyrics at the end...
Louie..ur soo rite..im soo freakin' EMO!!! lol..it actually scared me sometimes lol
Maggie Lilo and bart: WE GOT BUN-BUN!!! YAY!!!!...we have a masgot now!! lol..hes sooooo cute :)
ohh.. and thanks to the following ppl:
craig. kenny. birch. hooly. kerry. fatts. erika. janelle.
well thats it for today..i gotta remember to update and shit with this more often..its not like anyone reads it anyway! buhbye!!
-fOsCh!
"Take Time To Find"
It's a rainy night
So take this down to get it right
The drops hit cold and hard
But around the noise we're good
[Chorus:]
You're on your way, you're going strong
As for now we're just along
You're on your way, you're big, you're strong
As for me I hope I'm wrong
It's so loud it hurts sometimes
It's getting faster every night
I'd like to single out
Every smack against my head
[Chorus]
It's coming out
I wait for this for my enjoyment
Never let go
All the things you say to me
But when you have to go
For everything you'll have to be
I'll never let go
To all the things you say
I will not go
I will not go
[Chorus] |
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